Alright, lets do this

We have known about Wyatt's HLHS for almost 13 weeks now. That means we have spent the past 13 weeks thinking about it, stressing about it, wondering what it is going to be like, wondering how we are going to cope, hurting, and fearing. And let me tell you, 13 weeks is a long time to have been doing all that every single day. I feel like having an HLHS baby is not something you can really plan for. You can try to set things in motion, you can try to imagine how you might feel, you can try to have back up plans for the "regular" parts of your life. But that's it. We don't know how things are going to go; we only know how we would like them to go. We don't know how we are going to feel; we only know it is going to be really hard. We don't know what kind of help and support we are going to need to keep daily life running; we only can think of select things.

We are now at this point where we feel like we are ready for it to all start. We just want to start living it, and see how all these things are going to play out, rather than stressing and worrying about it all the time. We are ready to meet our son, kiss him, love him, and help him through this. We are ready to stop talking and start living. But, we of course have no control over that, and in actuality don't want Wyatt to come yet, as he would be premature and that would be terrible in conjunction with his CHD. 

We saw the OB on Friday, and she said that Wyatt is doing really well. He is growing like a weed, measuring about a week ahead all around for growth. He is currently weighing in at 4 pounds, 11 ounces. He should most likely gain another 3.5 - 4 pounds in the next 6 weeks, which would bring him to 8 - 9 pounds at birth, which would be great! He is still breech. For at least the past month or so, he has been sitting with his head just under my right breast, his butt in my pelvis, and his feet and hands up under my left breast. This seems to be his comfy spot, and he doesn't want to move. During our ultrasound he was playing with his feet, which was adorable. The ultrasound tech says he has hair too! We will continue to see our OB weekly from here on out, and at the 36 week mark, which is the second week of September, our OB said she is going to schedule us. We will be scheduled for a C-Section if he is still breech at that point, and we will be scheduled for an induction if he has turned by then. She said the likelihood of his turning after 36 weeks is very small, but if he did, we would just switch the procedure we are scheduled for.

I had Austyn via vaginal delivery, and have been anticipating a very hard, very fast labor with Wyatt, as I was only in labor with Austyn for 5 hours from start to finish, and I only pushed twice. Now, I have to re-prepare myself for the real possibility that I could be having Wyatt via C-Section. The C-Section itself doesn't worry me, but the recovery does. The OB said that if I was to deliver in the morning, I MIGHT be sitting up on the edge of my bed by that evening. What?! I want to be able to hop out of the bed, and go down to the NICU so I can be with Wyatt and DJ. I don't want to be stuck recovering in a post-op room, unable to go anywhere. So, that's a bummer. Obviously, there isn't anything I can do about it, and I just have to deal, but still, not a happy idea in my brain.

We went and had maternity photos taken yesterday, which was fun. All 3 of us were in the photos, and we even talked Austyn into kissing my belly :) I am excited to see how the photos turn out after editing. I think a lot of them are going to be super cute. It was a fun way to celebrate Wyatt, and our family. I think it was also a great way to show Austyn that not every part of this pregnancy is sad, or bad. He had fun at the shoot. 

So, now we continue waiting. We wait to see our photos, and we wait to see our son. I know that 6 weeks are going to go fast, in the grand scheme of things, but right now, I feel like 6 weeks is an eternity. But, this too, shall pass.